Thursday - One Day to Millions
This morning I woke up to my wife snuggling up against me. She claims it was because she was cold but she was holding pretty tight just for warmth. I love mornings like this. As I started to get ready I realized I forgot to file my taxes yesterday and told Katie to remind me. We had a brief argument because she has reminded me before and I didn't immediately go do them. I quickly ended it by telling her that I needed them done today and that I wasn't trying to tell her what to do or yell at her or anything, I just needed her help remembering. We kissed and I left for work 15 minutes late. Whoops.
Work today was stressful. There's nothing really that I can say except that people are stupid and constantly delete access from my team that we need in order to function. So I figured out what happened and how to fix it, but due to a very large problem that happened about a year ago, it will take 2 days to re-enable this access. Meaning I won't have it back before it is time for me to leave my department and start a new job. Awesome.
When I got home my wife was especially affectionate. Yay! I could tell she actually wanted my attention for the first time since she's been back. I ran an errand real quick and then came back and ate supper with my wife. As we were finishing up she said she had something awkward she wanted to tell me and then got shy and bashful. So I pressured her and she said, "What's the rule on exes?" and I said the name of her most recent ex and she blushed and looked away. Wow. Flash of jealousy and rage. I haven't felt like that in almost 10 years. The following ran through my head in less than a second's time: Really? The guy you dated before me? The guy you ran away with for a week because we were getting too serious too fast? The guy that you say nothing happened with during that week and I trust you because I love you and you're my wife but suddenly he's back in your life and you want to be with him from time to time? He wants to take you to another state for a weekend? The guy I thought you didn't get along with? WHAT IS GOING ON?! My mind flew through a mix of emotions from sad to angry to jealous to whatever else. I contained it, which is something I haven't been able to do before. I turned to walk away and told her she could do whatever she wanted. She said, "This is why I didn't want to tell you yet." so I turned back around and started to talk to her but I froze. She asked me what was on my mind and I said he was the one she basically left me for and this is the first time I've ever been jealous over her or anyone in a long time. She called herself a slut (jokingly) and it helped calm me down. We talked for a minute and I told her about my concerns for our affection and she insists that most of the time it's just because she's a couch hog or whatever. She also said we just had sex a few days ago. A few days feels like so much longer than a few days...
She ended up telling me that she wants to meet up with him and make sure that he's still the same guy and not a jerk. I told her I don't want another LA scenario because I don't want her to be upset for feeling used. I also told her that I don't think she should see LA romantically again because of what happened. She didn't say she wasn't going to see him again but she seemed to consider it. I'm fine with her seeing him again as friends or whatever and if something happened that's fine. I just don't want it to be do planned because I feel like she's being used and when she's not overwhelmed with emotions and stuff so does she. Anyway moving on, she basically told me that she wants me to go visit A when she goes out of town with him for a weekend, if she decides to go. Oh i guess i forgot to mention how it all started. He apparently asked her to go to another state with him without knowing our situation. *suspicious*
More to come later...
"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is the regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable." - Sydney Smith
Kyle: 27 year old male
Katie (rymmare): 25 year old female
Kids: girl: 5 years old, boy: 3 years old
Last edited by KyleKat; 03-29-2012 at 11:59 PM.