And by the way, no, it doesn't make you sound pathetic at ALL to consider your love rare and precious... that's a beautiful thing! It would be pathetic if you didn't even like him that much and were just going along with it because you didn't think you could do better. Don't ever be ashamed that you think your love is special, that's the right way to feel. Especially when you also have the self-esteem to still say you'll walk away if it turns out you can't get your needs met! You are strong.
Me, 30ish bi female, been doing solo poly for roughly 5 years. Gia, Clay, and Pike, my partners. Davis, ex/friend/"it's complicated." Eric, Gia's husband. Bee, Gia and Eric's toddler.