GroundedSpirit, thank you, good ideas to think about.
I think theoretically I am a voyeur. And so maybe that would be enough for me. I suppose a part of me is also afraid i would "like" it too much.
By that, I mean I would never want to "need" it later. Or want more. I have the ability to obsess over things. But, I also dont know if i want my fears to hold her back in something she obviously wants.
"Welcome to my never, never world
Come with me,
I'll bring you sleep retarded memories
My heroin, hold it in
If my smoke gets in your eyes..