Ygirl, I appreciate your insight.
I think you touched on what does make me feel a bit strange about it, but to be fair, she doesn't mind if I was to say masterbate to these events. But, yes..I would never be allowed to "join".
Is this something that could be done once and if I just felt like it wasnt a comfortable scenario for me, we could back out without damaging "our" relationship. Or do you guys think its a pandoras box?, that once open...well, im sure you know what that means.
"Welcome to my never, never world
Come with me,
I'll bring you sleep retarded memories
My heroin, hold it in
If my smoke gets in your eyes..