Originally Posted by Phy
Wow, this sounds like us/me big time. I was so exhausted after I first experienced the emotional commotion of two men in my life. When I came back from Lin I needed my adjustment time and time to process things. After the first visit of Lin at our home, Sward and I got into a fight because I was still in 'recharge' phase and couldn't tend to him the way I would have normally because I was just exhausted by the required level of emotional output poly was asking of me to provide.
Let me tell you, as insecure, strained and overwhelmed as you feel by this situation, she feels the same. The reasons are different but the intensity isn't. Give yourself some time and grant her the same. An overwhelming week, an overwhelming event as soon as she came home, don't put her under pressure even more, she needs some time to take a deep breath.
You're exactly right and I should have seen that. I'm just so mad at myself for ending the night like that. What the fuck is wrong with me, you know? I mean part of the reason she went on vacation is so we can have time to get away from the arguments and settle down and the first day she's back I pick a fight because I'm horny? Real smooth. I feel worse because of what happened earlier in the day being so great. I hate ruining good moments and yeah there was a several hour gap there but I still feel ridiculous.
Today I start my new work schedule. It's an hour earlier and I set my alarm clock even earlier to give us a chance to talk. She told me last night doesn't matter and I wasn't a jerk all day so it's ok. I just wish I could let go of it... Sigh.
"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is the regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable." - Sydney Smith
Kyle: 27 year old male
Katie (rymmare): 25 year old female
Kids: girl: 5 years old, boy: 3 years old
Last edited by KyleKat; 03-14-2012 at 01:52 PM.