Wow. Apologies for the meltdown. I have no idea what's going on with me. I'm not normally that depressed or... whatever. Obnoxiously self-centered.
Thank you for the responses that actually gave hope. I seriously wish I could hug you all. I could go into theories on that meltdown, but it would go into metaphysical stuff and this isn't really the forum for that.
Anyway, for those that could have potentially been worried to a small degree that I would do something incredibly stupid, fear not. I live still and my annoying presence shall try your patience for much longer!