Thanks KyleKat, taking a breath is something i forget to do since I always want to please everyone (anxiety stuff...)
He is all shocked because he thinks there will be no "us" anymore.. but I don't think that's right. I guess it is hard to think of me as someone else too.. I think the fact that I chose a girl and not a man says a lot, if it was a man it was like I was saying that he is not man enough for me, but girls are so different.
I think it is what I need a guy and a girl...
and I am always worrying how do I make him understand that there is still "us" and that she is there to.. add and not to steal from him
I guess it takes time
but what if it doesn't happen ever
I don't want to lose any of them
This makes me so sad and rises up my anxiety