I am not finding anything particularly weird about your first post. Then again I fully believe that "different" is the new norm. Peoples desire and understanding of themselves changes throughout life. This is where you are at now, it might or might not change.
I know a few men that like men and butchy women. The men I dated tended to be like that for a time as I was lesbian identified for ten years and enjoyed being butchy. Now I'm dominant and more feminine, although I can go butch on your ass at the drop of a hat!
lol. I am tending towards more masculine men as I get older. Its all very interesting to experience the eb and flow.
I don't know where you live, but in my life there are all sorts of wierdos. I suggest going to find some. It doesn't seem as weird after awhile. In fact, "regular" people seem weird to me now.