I ended up going to the casino with a friend of mine. We had planned on going tomorrow but I wanted to go tonight because I was nervous about the trip, bored, and didn't want to dwell on things and end up getting upset or something. It's now 3:30 AM and I have to wake up at 7 AM for work. Whoops! The only reason this is important is because when I get tired I get super doomy-gloomy and overreact a lot. I had a brief (~1 min) moment where I got super jealous because I realized she was going to do something with him that she doesn't like doing with me. Then I kinda spaced out because I am exhausted and when I thought about it again I was like, "why does that matter? I don't really like doing that either, and it's more out of necessity than desire." Thought about how far away she was and that made me a little sad, but that's normal I realize.
GirlInGray: I tend to over think a lot of things. One of my biggest flaws is that I read into everything. It takes me a lot of time to overcome things and every second until I do is anguish. So it's a mixture. I had to wait it out, but I also thought about it constantly until I finally came to a conclusion. I'm glad it happened before she went or this would probably have been disastrous.
I was already driving her insane wanting to talk out every detail all the time.
In the past five years neither of us have really "done our thing". Her getting away for a week was definitely needed for both of us to remain happy and not want to kill each other. Also, I'm the nosiest damn person in the world. I constantly ask her what she's doing or what they're talking about. I don't really care about what it is, I just want to be in on it. I've been trying to find people I can text randomly throughout the day so I don't do that to her, but meh. Right now I'm really trying to figure out how I can resist the urge to ask her a million questions when she comes back. I don't want her to think I'm jealous. I don't know. I need to sleep.
Thanks for everyone's response. I was hoping I wasn't going insane.