Hello to all,
I'm going to apologize in advance for introducing myself by whining about my problems...
, but I'm desperate for advice and help.
I am a 30 yr old married female. We have a 4 yr old and have been married 5 years. My problem begins with my lack of love/romance/attraction in my marriage, and my attraction to other men. I have had 3 incidents where I met someone else and felt extreme chemistry. I flirted relentlessly, never acted on the urge to take it any further, and ended up on this emotional roller coaster of extreme guilt and extreme highs from the flirting. The closest I can describe this feeling is an addiction to the thrill of someone new. The day or week after my flirting, I always feel lower and more depressed than ever, because that high I got on someone different was gone and I'm left with the same boring monotone to life.
Now my problem is, how do I deal with these fallout emotions? I can't function and I avoid my husband at all costs.
If anyone here can help me figure out how to cope, I need it badly.