I started a thread in the blog section, although I did get some feedback there I'd like to post it here as well since here all the talking really happen.
This is my post if anyone is interested.. http://www.polyamory.com/forum/showthread.php?t=21637
But if you don't feel like reading I will sum it up in a few words:
I ave a boyfriend of five and a half years and we are going to be married in a few months. A while a go we met a girl who we invited to play with us (she is a lesbian bt, doesn't matter no but might later) but she happened to be way to amazing... i'd like her to be a part of my life, a girlfriend maybe? I cant bring it up to him because of my anxiety, but trying someho to push him into these kind of conversations... hoping to move things from there?
So since I decided (not very willingly because of my anxiety who controls me most of the time) to let things go slowly abnd not push them, it feels like I go in circles. One step forward, two backwards.
Is there anyone who were in this kind of situation?
I can't put my life on hold untill I figure out my anxiety, I don't kno what to do