OMG! I just said the "L" word.
Seriously, I am emotionally retarded...Dude and I have been "involved" for 9-10 months (during which time we have been living together) and I have come to acknowledge that he is my "boyfriend" and I just NOW (as of a whole 40 minutes ago) told him that I "loved" him. This is a HUGE deal for me, as I have only ever told one other person this, ever...(That would be MrS, a jillion or so years ago...and that took a good 1 1/2 years...so Dude cut that time in 1/2.)
To be fair, I have known this (subconsciously) for some time, MrS told me a few months ago that it was OK for me to say it (to Dude), Dude has been saying it to me for some time (my response?: "Thank you."). To me, the verb "love" implies a certain level of responsibility - that I always have shied away from and am now, hesitantly, ready to acknowledge.
Wish me luck (please!).
Me: poly bi female, in an "open-but-not-looking" Vee-plus with -
MrS: hetero polyflexible male, live-in husband (23+ yrs)
Dude: hetero poly male, live-in boyfriend (4+ yrs) and MrS's best friend
Lotus: poly bi married female, "it's complicated" relationships with Dude/JaneQ/MrS (1+ years)
+ "others" = FBs, FWBs, lover-friends, platonic G/BFs, boytoys, etc.
My poly blogs here:
The Journey of JaneQSmythe
The Notebook of JaneQSmythe