Your story is not unlike many. Thanks for your honest account of your history. You seem very attuned to your process and journey.
It seems your husband needs to read this thread and see where you are coming from. Maybe if you relay your story as you have told it to us his mind will open up to WHY you aren't ready.
It seems to me that there is a possibility that no work has been done, since you got back together, on what needs changing in your relationship. Have you had any relationship therapy since you've decided to try again?
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