Thank you again, really. I do apologize now if I make it seem like my husband is the bad guy. He really isn't. He has seen and dealt with all of my crazy and still wants to be with me no matter what. I'm still afraid of the concept that he doesn't come back. I know it's an irrational fear, but it's still there. Along with everything else. I don't want him to hate me for preventing something that he needs. He is my best friend and knows exactly who I am. Sorry for rambling on.
Niah/me: 26 Bi female, married to Kail: 26 Bi male, Thing 1: our oldest child, Thing 2: the trouble maker, Thing 3: the baby/bun in the oven
"Those who bring sunshine to the lives of others can not keep it from themselves"