Welcome to the board, Mermaid!
You have 12 hours to edit your post. Would you please add paragraph breaks? Most people won't real a wall of text like yours and you won't get many responses.
Love withers under constraint; its very essence is liberty. It is compatible neither with envy, jealousy or fear. It is there most pure, perfect and unlimited when its votaries live in confidence, equality and unreserve. -- Shelley
me: Mags, 58, living with:
miss pixi, 37, who is dating (NRE):