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Old 02-15-2012, 07:16 PM
elemental elemental is offline
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Some pretty hard realizations hit me this morning, this part should be called the “addict confessional”, and I am really struggling with the realization that a lot of my behavioral pattern is built up from my addictive nature, that all the signs along the way have shown me that I was back sliding into old patterns. I guess feeling good in recovery and letting my guard down, it seems to start with little things, drinking more regularly, started smoking more regularly, the more intense sexual experiences, tripping on the nre, losing sight of the selfish behavior, all that justification bllsht. UGH. Got to get out of the downward spiral and get clear.
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