http://polyindiana.wordpress.com/200...m-familiarity/
It could just be me but I found this blog to be beautiful and painful. You seem so conflicted by a desire to have security in a relationship and total freedom to let relationships go to whatever depth is natural to them. You're desire to want to experience people on all levels is something I am familiar with although not in myself.
Your blog has affected me, sadenned me and enlightened me. I hope to hear more from you.
Peace and Love
Mono