I am a person who has had a past of pushing most things to the absolute limit, going down every avenue until the bitter end, not relenting until all of MY questions are answered, and sometimes hurting people in that process. It felt good to think of him first, to love him by consciously putting aside my desires or any manipulation of his thinking and just letting him know he's great and should be good to himself.
you sound like me,
you have done something i never can do, becuase so far in my life i have never been able to let things go, i fight on and on long after i should have taken a step back
i have learned something from reading you're words becasue i know there may come a time when i may need to be able to do the same.