I know you guys are right there isn't anyone to blame, it's just something that has happened and I need to dust myself off and move on. We probably should have taken more of a break before trying to be friends, but we both care about each other a great deal. His dad just passed away on friday so it would be a bad time to try a friendship break. there is just a part of me that feels like I shouldn't be this upset after over two years. I'm usually a pretty calm girl, not too dramatic or overly emotional so to keep being this upset and keep crying is hard. But I know if we were to end up being back together I would feel guilty if I ever had feelings for someone else, which tends to happen and is why I identify with being poly.
Thanks again for listening guys.
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