You threw out an untenable situation, which you dived into voluntarily. No matter what you do now, someone will be mightily hurt (you included), by distance, by dishonesty, by poor decision-making... call it what you will. My concern for you is that you're not dealing honestly with the people you love, and in the end, if you don't stop that, the one who will be hurting the most is you.
"Sweet," by the way, is a poor substitute for genuine concern. I'd rather be confronted with an uncomfortable reality than stuck in sap.