Originally Posted by redpepper
sorry, I'm a bit confused... you two are broken up, yet you are working on this like a couple not broken up.... why? because of history?...
Legion, I was lead to believe by other posts that you are a free spirit that just wants to have lots of girlfriends... I'm all for lots of girlfriends. I don't think it means that at the end of ones life there is a feeling of having been loved and that makes me sad, but what the heck, I don't think everyone has that goal in mind anyway. I also think that eventually many women will get hurt as, it seems to me, that as we age we tend to want to settle more and the women that you may date might have this in mind and be hurt by your free spirit. I was considering this when I read the hurt that NYX was going through. She seems to be a woman that wants to settle into something long term, close to home and good for a family style relationship. Sooooo, what are you two working towards....???? That may be the first step in communicating.
Legion forgive me if I am surprised that you actually have some depth! and actually are willing to work on this. Even if you aren't getting back together, it will be beneficial in the long run anyways..
good luck you two...
My stance on Nyx and I's "relationship or lack therof" is that I feel the same way about her (more or less) now that we are "apart" than I did not so long ago when we were "together". Or years ago when we weren't even in communication, she still had this place in my heart, even if the exact way I perceived her and felt about her wasn't the same as it was yesterday, two weeks ago, four months go or a year ago.
We are in a relationship. Whether it is committed, sexual, romantic, fulfilling, healthy, physical and/or intimate is and has been in a state of flux since we first met.
My life could end tomorrow and I feel that I have been loved. Truly, deeply to an extent which has satisfied me greatly. I have just started to find a new depth to my own and other people's love, but I don't discount the value of the love that I have received/given simply because it is impermanent.
Things that are true in a moment are forever true in that moment, whatever else happens along the space/time continuum.
I know that women have been hurt, and I have been hurt and filled with doubt. I am trying to be clear and I see an ideal that I have yet to achieve. I keep dreaming and trying and stumbling along the way.