It sounds like you are dealing with jealousy just fine. Its just a matter of time and going through it to a point of confidence that its all okay and you can let go of the residual self talk that is going through your mind. What you speak of is part of your journey and you are still in it. When you reach a place of realization that you aren't holding on to jealousy any more you will be through it. Sometimes it all just takes time.
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