This is almost exactly how i feel sometimes. I waffle back and forth about what I want, etc, and if it is good for me to go forward with this. One thing that I just realized is that once I start talking about it, the fears kind've melt away.
It is soooooo nice to know that Ouroboros isn't hiding something from me, that when we are happy, we are totally open, and just in the past week of talking the time we spend together is even more appreciated.
It is a great feeling. Maybe you will discover this as well, once you hop over the hurdle of just being afraid to talk? There are many steps, but that first one can provide you with great rewards.