I think your reply is spot on. It makes total sense. I mean we went the whole spectrum of a relationship. The marriage was almost over. Literally 11th hour type over. How could we build anything with another involved.
I will take this time to reflect on what bothered me and do some soul searching. In the meantime I will also work on building this new relationship with my wife. I look forward to a future when I can be ok with things. I just hope I have not lost my wife. I know she says she loves me and she can handle it but my inability to give to her has hurt her.