I'm sad it's ended.
Background: My wife and I were involved with another married couple for around 6 months.
Today I told my wife and OSO I did not want this anymore. I could not find a place where I was not bothered by something. I tried for 6 months to find a way but I just can't put myself through the emotional roller coaster anymore. I am keeping things open though.
It's been a tough ride for me. Almost lost our marriage then we got it back but with others involved. I was thinking today that maybe I need time to build this new relationship with my wife first before I can be mature enough to handle polyamory. I'm afraid of the future. I don't want to lose my wife.
It's feels horrible. I am the one that dropped the ball or missed the field goal so to speak. I had to hurt 3 people that I really care for today. Now it is something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life.