I don't feel at all loved or wanted.
I feel like when R left last night and was angry at me for not acknowledging W's feelings and what she was saying.. that he chose her.
He chose to leave me in the state I was in.. hurt.. confused... angry.. drunk..
But then he begs me to stay?
He begs me to stay?
I don't understand.
I feel so numb, He asks me if I love him and when I hesitate he gets upset.
Maybe he just wants to be loved, wants to be needed.
Maybe this isn't about being monogamous or poly, its about being wanted and needed above all else. Its not about the sex, or the connection or the emotion.
Its about his inability to be alone. His inability to accept responsibility.
He just wants to be wanted.
Me- Free Spirited Bisexual R- My Partner W- His Girlfriend