Thank you for the great advice. I definitely need to focus on the positive aspects of our relationship. We are on a wonderful RV trip together and I am cherishing every moment of it.
The only time i cause any drama is when I feel that our boyfriend gives my husband more attention. I see the difference in how he acts with my husband. I know my husband and I are two different people and our boyfriend is going to respond differently to the both of us... I sound like I am in grade school.
Last night our boyfriend and I went for a walk to chat and for the first time I really felt his love as we talked. I truly felt a true connection. During this time I was feeling bad because my husband wasn't there and I kept thinking about how I didn't want him to feel left out like I feel often. It was nice.