I guess some of my frustration comes from the fact that I found someone and can no longer pursue them due to spousal interference on their side. I really don't want to interfere with her relationship partially because of that. I know it's not a race, I just feel ready to find someone and now that I am nobody is talking to me. I've talked with some really wonderful people and been shot down. I've always been a bit shy around women. I've been reading a lot about poly, jealousy, and NRE. Started before we did anything in fact. It is exciting as hell and equally frightening.
Sorry if I write in blocks, posting from my phone.