Originally Posted by BaconWrappedCupcakes
Probably. I keep feeling like if I can 'forget' about her and focus on him that it'll get better.
Focus on this: He is a liar. He is untrustworthy. He played with your safety like a cat with a ball of yarn.
I understand that you want to forgive him and pretend that everything will be ok if you can just forget about it.
Will you still feel that way if he infects you with HIV? What if you're in a scene and he ignores your safe word because that would spoil his fun?
This has absolutely nothing to do with her. Nothing. It's about the scumbag loser that he is, for lying about something so obviously important to you.