I like the idea of asking for reassurance. thank you
We did have sleepovers, but I was not involved in sex at the time.
I have a fear of intimacy, which I am working on. I don't want this fear. I think I feel envious of their intimacy -- wait... maybe I'm feeling threatened by it? It's an unfounded threat, of course, I know they love me as much as they love each other.
Intimacy is something they can do with ease, and I hear it. I really have to find the strength to be intimate.