Indigo has backed off and given me space, for which I am grateful. He seems to have figured out that giving me space does not mean giving me a head start to run away.
I don't feel like there's this constant pressure to be affectionate with him. In return, I'm able to be more genuinely affectionate than I otherwise would. Which is to say, I am able to be genuinely affectionate.
It's unfortunate that when things get rough between us, he needs more physical contact and I need space. I (probably) end up coming off cold and distant to him, whereas he feels clingy and needy to me. Scary in different ways to each of us.
Things were much better yesterday; we've set everything aside until our Wednesday appointment. Doesn't feel like that sky is falling anymore.