Complicated: my story (long post)
I've been lurking on here for a while then i read iloveyoutwo's "complicated" thread and decided to post my own similar story.
I'm 44, in a marriage for two years that has been completely devoid of all physical or emotion affection. She doesnt hold my hand, kiss me goodbye and her affect is completely flat all the time. I cant tell whether she's happy, sad, or angry. We live literally as platonic roomates. She is Chinese and very much a workaholic and the only thing holding me to her is my son. He is 15 months old. He is the light of my life. I love the little guy to death and its an absolute joy to come home to him everyday. I feel that all the work, hardships and sacrifices i've made up to this point were worth it to have this little guy come into my life.
The problem is if we divorce she could very well take him back to China and i would never see him again. It breaks my heart to the point that i get physically sick sometimes with the thought of losing him. I've met another woman who is bi and poly and want to desperately spent the rest of my life with her. She is the one i should be with but she came into my life about 6 months ago. The time i spend with her makes me feel happy, keeps me sane from becoming an emotional wreck and fills some of that very basic human need of wanting affection and to feel loved by another human being.
I'm stuck. I know my life is miserable and i dont want to stay in this situation until my son turns 18. I dont know which way to turn.......any thoughts, help, comments......