If your concern about therapy is that you're not so sure it'll work... well... what if it does?? Isn't it worth a try, on the off chance that your life could be better than this? Even if it only helped a little, what could be more valuable than your mental health and resilience? No more excuses! Go! Go!
Me, 30ish bi female, been doing solo poly for roughly 5 years. Gia, Clay, and Pike, my partners. Davis, ex/friend/"it's complicated." Eric, Gia's husband. Bee, Gia and Eric's toddler.