Originally Posted by Carma
I'm not perfect, I'm making lots of mistakes, but I'm not giving up. Please don't give up on me!
I think it's safe to say we're all rooting for you, Carma!
But at some point, you're gonna have to stop struggling with this internally and just lay it all out on the table with Sundance. He's not the same person as your first husband and you can only grow as a person if you take a risk and say what needs to be said. And maybe even calling Barbie and meeting her is still a good idea, whether he knows about it, approves, or not. Otherwise you will just be hiding out, venting here as an escape, and stagnating.
(That is not to say you shouldn't be venting here. I, for one, hope you will still be a part of this community and post all the stuff you need to, whether you are poly or mono or what!)