Interesting. It's not like I find calm boring, I actually LIKE calm, but I don't trust it.
I think more what I want in my life is just calm and contentment in general life stuff. The rest-- the happy and sad and angry moments are always going to be there, but I'd like the underlying part of my life to be content.
I really do know that a lot of that is up to me-- in that I need to be content with MYSELF first. And I never have had that. I've faked it a lot-- but it never translated into ACTUAL contentment so it would always fall apart at some point.
So I guess that's where my efforts need to be for now...