I think it does. You hold no particular interest or bias in it because it never conflicted towards your beliefs, good or bad. When you get a pleasant experience out of it, it starts opening your doors to possibilities and you think you would like to see more of it. However, in this case it would possibly only open a slight bit, like a door cracked enough to let in the light. It takes a bit of courage and initiative to step forward and open it completely to see what's beyond...
I'm sorry for your pain and struggle, and hope you can find the group here very supportive and willing to help.