FYI if you go back a page or more you can retrieve your lost post. You can also option for being "remembered" when you log in.
Have you considered an long distant relationship (LDR)? Maybe finding someone on line would work? That way they could visit and things could build slowly.
Please remember that people have different writing styles and/or can be triggered by threads. How they come across can reflect that. I have found that remembering what is my shit and what is someone elses is really helpful. As is not replying if I am triggered or waiting for a bit. Just a word to the wise there.