||06-09-2010 04:01 PM
wow, what a great resource. i wish i had found this forum a long time ago!
i am a profoundly poly married gal in her late 20s who has know that monogamy wouldn't work for her since she was in her early teens. :) lucky me! i am a scientific person and tend to pick and analyze my feelings to understand their roots more completely. so when i very first started out having romantic relationships, i started this process with what people generally identify as "jealousy". at various points in my late teens/early 20s, i managed to pry it open and found a mess of different things: my personal insecurities, burning curiosity about what went on sexually and emotionally with people i felt "jealousy" towards, a longing to feel my own needs were respected and met, etc. yay, more things to analyze! lather, rinse, repeat...throw in some bad experiences and some good experiences, a rather academic and serious analysis of what works and what doesn't, a philosophical study of poly via writings and books, a dash of frustration from some failed experiments and a nice healthy dose of absolute BLISS when i discovered that i experience compersion to a massive degree and that "hey, this could work!"...and here i am!
anyway, i am really excited to find this forum. i have found myself in lots of rocky situations in the past (and am in one now) and feel like this would have been a great support resource, but hey, at least i found you guys now, right? i will save my advice-seeking for more appropriate forums, but i wanted to stop in here first and say hello and voice my glee. :)