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noisycthulhu 08-10-2012 05:09 AM

Conflicted
 
Um hello ^_^

I'm a 23 yr old female who found, after I divorced my scumbag husband of three years, strong attraction to females in the form of a poly-fling. A married couple introduced me into the physical side of things, and I've found that emotional appeals to me as well.

I basically can't decide between a man or a woman anymore. I want both equally and have been shown hope in the form of polyamory. I'm single and have promised to remain so until I find exactly what I want/need.

But, hey, I'm not a monk ;)

I'm currently in a program to break into the business of clerical work so I can support myself after my divorce. It starts at the end of this month (August) and I will have a tight schedule and won't have time for real life activities. I shall be an internet troll.

I'm shy but not timid and I am looking to find my way through these feelings and longings without driving myself insane. I'm an open book, I'm just awkward :D

Glitter 08-10-2012 07:02 AM

Who ever said you have to choose? Date both and see who catches your fancy ;) No need to limit yourself hon, do what feels right for you. Who did you promise? If yourself, you will need to explore a bit to figure out what you want. If you want both, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that! I want both ;)

noisycthulhu 08-10-2012 07:14 AM

Well I have a habit of wanting to please people, and in relationships I go along with what direction the other person takes it, so I have promised myself not to compromise to please someone else and focus on what IM looking for - and that seems to be a partner of both sexes :P

Glitter 08-10-2012 07:16 AM

Then go for both ;) Don't focus solely on M vs F, but rather, who you like and how they make you feel.

noisycthulhu 08-10-2012 07:19 AM

Oh I've come to that conclusion thus far :) When you can't choose, pick both! I'm trying to put my feet in the water, as it were...

kdt26417 08-10-2012 10:40 PM

Hello Noisy C,
Welcome to our forum.

It sounds like you have made some big steps in your own life, and figured out what you want in life as well. Take it one thing at a time, things will come together eventually.

Glad you could join us on our site, you sound like an interesting person to me. :)

Regards,
Kevin T.

MeeraReed 08-11-2012 01:15 AM

Great screen name, by the way!

Lovecraft was a messed-up fellow, but Cthulhu is pretty awesome.

noisycthulhu 08-11-2012 03:21 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by kdt26417 (Post 147522)
Hello Noisy C,
Welcome to our forum.

It sounds like you have made some big steps in your own life, and figured out what you want in life as well. Take it one thing at a time, things will come together eventually.

Glad you could join us on our site, you sound like an interesting person to me. :)

Regards,
Kevin T.

Thank you! I've figured out some things and for now, being the fly on the wall appeals to me. I'll watch and see what happens ^_^

noisycthulhu 08-11-2012 03:22 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by MeeraReed (Post 147535)
Great screen name, by the way!

Lovecraft was a messed-up fellow, but Cthulhu is pretty awesome.

I love me some Cthulhu Mythos. :D this is my screen name for EVERYthing ^_^

GalaGirl 08-11-2012 06:21 AM

Welcome!

And good for you -- divorce, new work training, new dating outlook -- those are bold moves there. You have courage. And you are on your way to your new happiness!

That's awesome.

GG :)


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