The Science of Feeling Good
There has to be some sort of trick to it, something to uncover that makes it easier--or at least more possible--to feel good.
As a bit of background, I have to say that I honestly don't know of a time in my life when I've felt completely well. I'm a complex tower of physical, psychological, and physiological problems. I have always been overweight, and massively so. I've had lifelong issues with allergies, asthma, gastric disorders, hormonal imbalance, depression, and insomnia. At any point, at least one of these issues (or something else that I have yet to discover) has been bothering me.
I can take some medications to help with some of these issues, but things like the depression only feel better when I'm at a good place in life. One of the problems is, things don't often feel good in my life because I'm so exhausted and dogged down by my health issues that I let things--friendships, opportunities, chances to have some fun and adventure--slip by.
So, I'm working from the ground up. Trying to sort things out, get my health in order so I can concentrate on getting back to grad school, getting out of my shitty retail management job, and actually building the life I want for myself.
So I'm outlining plans for getting there, one step at a time. Changing the little things. I guess all I want from a blog is this: a place to keep my thoughts in order, a place where I can bitch about the process, and hopefully a little help from people in holding me accountable for this. I'm good at making plans and not seeing them through (largely because this illness/stasis thing that plagues me.)
Any support or prodding in the right direction would be much appreciated.
Kori's simple changes for a better life:
--See a doctor (I have an appointment on Friday) and be persistent about getting things taken care of. Get the workups to make sure that I'm not having any sort of endocrine/metabolic/blood sugar issues.
--Less processed food. It's getting into the growing season anyway. I will live for my local farmer's market.
--Cut back on soda. I had been drinking a 2-liter of diet pepsi every day. This cannot possibly be good. Substituting tea, because I cannot drink water for some reason.
--Kashi and home-made oatmeal instead of Froot Loops.
--Eat 1 cup of yogurt daily.
--Skim milk instead of 1%.
--30 minutes of fresh air daily, minimum.
--Try my best to leave work at work and not fret about it when I'm off the clock.
Good luck with your life changes. It is possible. Start with one change at a time and chose the change that is easiest for you to make. Success will help you stick to it. I was realizing yesterday (because I'm at a conference where we're talking about change) how long it has taken me to get to where I am today. 10 years ago I was overweight and thought that a block and a half was a long walk. Now I'm at a place where activity is a natural part of my life and making healthy choices when I eat isn't a chore anymore. I did it by making one change at a time and getting used to that before moving on to something else.
Also keep us posted with how you're doing. Having a group to offer support is always a good thing. All the best
I like the things you listed above because they are so possible and realistic! Too many people try to go on diets as opposed to changing their dietary choices if you know what I mean. One is short term, the other long term.
Sounds like you have really done your homework.
Diet soda, although lacking in the sugar of others, is till an appetite stimulator which leads to the desire to eat so it's a great choice in reducing that in my opinion.
I have Kashi and yogurt every morning and I feel great and it's yummee! (yogurt is my icecream)
Skim milk all the way!
Fresh air and leaving work at work...priceless:)
Here's to you achieving everything you want :)
I for one can understand a lot of what you are saying and going to do here. Athough never considered "massively" overweight, I have been at least 50 -75 lbs more than what is considered healthy for a long time. Good ol' puberty took away my high metabolism. lol I have also had health problems from asthma to bad knees and back which make exercise painful. But I'd like to leave you some of my thoughts and what I've found to help me and my quest for health and happiness with my body.
Tea is great, juice, milk, lemonade/limeade...more natural ingredients than fillers.
As we all know these changes are possible as people do them all the time. I find it is keeping with the change and not falling back into comfort zones that really bogs me down. Well, that and getting pregnant. ;)
BTW, "chieving" is my new favorite word, Mono! Takes some of the seriousness out of our goals and ambitions, no? HA!
Look into Buddhism.
They know a lot about changing bringing out your Inner Self, the Divine within you.
It doesn't matter how many external things you change about your life. All the fresh air and green tea in the world won't make your life better unless you change from within.
Day 1 of better choices
First of all, I want to thank everyone for your outpouring of positivity and support. I need every bit of help I can get. Stoicism is one of my major downfalls.
I should explain why I'm doing this now, after I've tried and failed before. It's a combination of little things.
Work has been more than a little stressful lately. A visit from our area manager a few weeks ago has left my boss in a position where she's scared for her job--and that high-strung, nagging feeling she has about it is getting passed onto us. I'm finally getting a weekend after 9 days back to back at work, 9 days in which I got further and further behind in my monthly goals. I was on my feet 9 hours a day, running around like a mad chicken, only to get chewed out for all the things I had missed or accidetally overlooked--and ignored for everything I did well.
I realized at that moment that while my dream of going back to grad school and moving on to teaching was there, I haven't taken a damned step towards it since I left college last July. I realized I needed to move towards that, but for the last few months I've found myself so physically and mentally exhausted that I haven't put forth any of the effort needed. I know that I have something yet undiagnosed. Lately I've been feeling huge highs and lows around meals--I'm dizzy and exhausted and withdrawn when I'm hungry, and after eating I have intense headaches and nausea. I never have any energy, and while I know part of it is my diet, I sometimes wonder if my body isn't processing what I eat correctly.
This is part of what is leading me to make these changes. The other part is that I cleaned out my fridge the other day. It was shocking. I had three heads of lettuce, a bag of carrots, some leeks, a head of broccoli, and three tomatoes that had all been left to rot while I was eating banquet meals and fast food instead. After cleaning the fridge, here's what I had left: ketchup, mayo, chocolate syrup, three plastic lemons full of lemon juice, a gallon of milk, some leftover chinese takeout, and five bags of shredded cheese.
This is all part of spring cleaning for me.
Today's smart and productive decisions:
-bought new produce--including bagged salad because it eliminates the "prep work" excuse.
-brewed some tea and iced it for work instead of my traditional 2-liter.
-packed some chicken and rice soup and whole wheat crackers for dinner at work today instead of eating mall food.
-Kashi for breakfast.
-did some dishes instead of sleeping in.
Slips/areas for improvement
-frozen pizza for dinner last night, ate the leftovers as late-night snack/next-day lunch.
-didn't eat my yogurt.
-didn't get my 30 minutes of fresh air. (Will sleep with a window open tonight though to air out the apartment/get a little freshness.)
-bought a pretzel when I stopped to get a cup of ice on my way into work.
-ate cereal for dinner. Definitely behind on my proteins today.
May I make a suggestion?
Having gone from 216 down to 152 in the last 2 years I found a few things that were VERY helpful.
First-join www sparkpeople.com
It's free and it's got a LOT of helpful parts/pieces to it.
track your food/drinks PERFECTLY. Seriously-I did that and it was a HUGE difference.
There is a tracker on sparkpeople for food/drinks/water/activity.
Start slow with working out-but be consistent. Pick things that don't SEEM like a new workout-log 'em. Like walking to the mailbox, or walking around the yard, do leg lifts while you watch tv....
See if you can manage the water if you use some lemon in it and have it over ice.
Every time you feel hungry-if you drink a glass of water ( I always do iced with lemon) first-then eat after, you will eat less. We often eat too much because we eat when our bodies are actually thirsty.
Commit to no soda by (pick a date) like they do with cigarettes. That one is hard for most people, but soda is a killer for the body in LOTS of ways.
Also-if you like to read, check out the book "the china study". It's frightening but very helpful in regards to health issues regarding food.
Feel free to PM me-I'm healing right now from surgery-but I'm pretty serious about my health too and it's been a lot of work, but I am making great progress. You can too!!
Today I had my first doctor's appointment since July. I told my doctor what I was up against health-wise, and she set up an action plan for me, along with a series of medications she's going to give me and some healthy living plans I have to follow. We have a goal: get me to a healthy weight.
I will never be skinny. I don't want to be skinny. I would be amazed and ecstatic if I made it down to a size 14. I will have to lose about 200 lbs to get there, and I can't even imagine how great that will feel.
So, I got three needles stuck in me and a ton of blood taken. I'm going to have my glucose and insulin levels checked, my testosterone and estrogen levels, thyroid levels, vitamin D, and several other things tested. Hopefully from that workup, we'll figure out what the heck is wrong with me.
Today I passed up the temptation to go out to eat. I made a sandwich at home instead. Also, I brewed more tea, so I'll have something to drink at home.
I passed up soda at dinner last night and while I was at Alex and Jenny's last night, and had iced tea and bottled water instead.
I'm having a productive couple of days. Yesterday I paid all my bills and worked out a budget. Today I did some dishes and some cleaning. I threw open my windows and the door to my balcony and let my fresh air come in.
Tomorrow I have work. This is always a pitfall because due to my 50 min commute and the fact that my job is exhausting, I find it hard to turn down soda or fast food when I'm at work/commuting. I'll see what I can do to keep from being too bad to myself.
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