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Somegeezer 11-14-2011 12:51 PM

A Fresh Page Of Somegeezer And The First Glimpse Of Clarity
 
First off, I'd like to say, in only 5 days time, I'll have been on this forum for a whole year! What a year it has been too. Really been digging deep and trying to find myself. I've had ups, downs, lefts and diagonals, but still on the search for the right.

I have great thanks to give to a fair few people on this forum alone and other polys around the world who I've have been able to communicate with for this past year. You have all helped me a lot since the beginning of all of this for me. I hope you will be for a long time to come.

I would like to personally give thanks to both RedPepper and Mono, who were some of the people I first got to know here and whose relationship I felt I personally connected with at the beginning and kept me fighting for what I believed. We may not talk a great deal, but you are both lovely people, who do a lot for the forum, helping people out, always having smiles on your faces! Great role models and I look up to you both.

Another big thanks to both NYCindie and SNeacail, Or Indie and Seasnail [I have no idea, don't ask!] as I like to call you. =P You have both been around since close to the time I joined here and have been regular in many conversations I've had through these forums. I don't really talk to either of you outside of a thread, but I feel like you should be given thanks for everything you both do here too.

I'd also like to give a big thank you to sunflowershower, who only recently, has started to become a much larger part of my life. Though not a regular on the forum, I did first meet her here and have slowly uncovered a greatness that lays beneath. I have a great deal of love for you.

I hope happiness will follow you all through life.

Of course, I do no mean to offend anyone, by not individually thanking you, but there are so many of you that help my life be that little better everyday. This, here, is a thank you to all of you. =]


Now. This is just an introduction, to what I hope, is something much greater. My old blog [found here], had been a lot of my crazy roundabouts of the past year and, unfortunately, a great deal of unhappiness. What I can really say has been my most upsetting year yet. Even though, at only almost 20 years young; I hope my age is not an indication of something much worse to come.

I want to really start fresh, push a lot more out of my own life, celebrate my first year of many on a new journey.

Thank you all for reading, Somegeezer. :o

[PS - New avatar picture for the new me. Much clearer image of myself, too.]

sunflowershower 11-14-2011 05:38 PM

You're very sweet, and thank you for mentioning me in your post. Although I don't feel as though YOU should be thanking ME. You are a very strong person, who knows (seemingly) what he wants from life and you give strength and courage to those you speak to. Thank YOU for allowing me to be a part of your life and for showing me that it is possible to be who are and to be accepted for it.

Somegeezer 11-18-2011 03:07 AM

So today, I was attacked...

I've been up since 2 in the morning. It's now nearly 3 in the morning, the next day. So 25 hours I've been up.

I had a gig eariler tonight, which Cherry attended. I wasn't really expecting her to be there, but it ended up being rather good towards the end of the night.

One of the guitarists offered her a lift home with us and she lives not far from me, so I, as a gentleman, asked to escort her home. Just to make sure she got there safely. Unknown to me, that I wouldn't make it back to my own home unharmed.

I don't really know this guy. I've "met" him once. All I know about him is his first name and that he is kinda living with Victoria now. He has been hassling her all night whilst she was out, and I'm feeling that perhaps he has threatened her with something or other. He managed to take me down without me even getting in a punch, and I'm not exactly a bad fighter.
I was already on my way home when he attacked me. The pansy did have to take some shitty moves like pulling my hair. How disrespectful! When I finally managed to get onto my feet again, I ran to Cherry's house, as it was closest. He then went inside to grab a knife. At that point, another guy, much calmer and seems like a fairly nice guy, managed to keep him away. I thanked him with a handshake and then pinned myself up against a parked car. My head was spinning wild at this point, due to the head trauma this guy had already given me. When I managed to finally realise what direction I was even facing, I hobbled my way home. Battered and bruised is so many places.

My mum and Dave went down there to have words. No success, so the police have been called. Still no success. They haven't even turned up yet.

Remember how I said I have been up 25 hours? Well I now need to stay up for another day, just to make sure I haven't got a concussion. I have another gig saturday and feel I may have even less energy than today.

What a great start to my new beginning. :(

SNeacail 11-18-2011 04:09 AM

OMG! Hugs! Glad your not hurt too bad.

Somegeezer 11-18-2011 04:55 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SNeacail (Post 111457)
OMG! Hugs! Glad your not hurt too bad.

Mostly scrapes and such from hitting the concrete. I may have concussion though. My thumb feels like it may be broken. Really difficult to move at all. Yet I'm most annoyed that my trousers are torn. I own a million shirts, but only 3 [now 2] pairs of trousers. No idea why, just never really needed more. But I may just restock. =]

Thank you for the hugs. Could really do with some real ones right now.

opalescent 11-18-2011 05:17 AM

Have you been to the hospital yet? Concussions are nothing to muck about with.

I'm so sorry this happened to you.

Somegeezer 11-18-2011 06:51 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by opalescent (Post 111469)
Have you been to the hospital yet? Concussions are nothing to muck about with.

I'm so sorry this happened to you.

You're actually meant to just monitor things for a while. My dizziness is definitely going. I have balance again. I think I should be ok. I may have to see if my thumb is fractured if it hurts tomorrow though. Fridays and saturdays in a hospital... Blergh. I'd be in A&E for days. =P

Thank you for the kind words though.

Somegeezer 12-25-2011 05:24 AM

Well, time for an update perhaps. =]

As of the previous entries, that stuff has all been "sorted". Police came and went, have had many calls between us. Unfortunately it never really went any further. Not enough evidence and witnesses weren't willing to take it to court if it had to. So that's done and been swept under the rug as it were.

I've just recently entered a relationship with someone actually very open to who I am too. She's a very free spirit and I feel a connection, even on a spiritual level. Something I've never really had in a relationship before now. Of course, it is very early days yet and at most, I feel we are just really close friends. Which certainly isn't a bad thing. =] For now, her name shall be Freespirit. Cheesy and totally unoriginal, but I'll think of something better. =P

I have myself a job. Even if it is just a small amount of hours [and money] a week. It makes me feel like I'm actually doing something with life. Hopefully it means I can start putting money towards things I need too. Which means throughout next year, I'm expecting my life to find a real direction and take me on an incredible journey. I hope you'll all be there to join me. =]

Much love to all. <3

Somegeezer 12-31-2011 07:46 AM

Bastarding computers, that's what I say! =P

But hey, I hope all you guys have had a good time over christmas and enjoy this new year too. Even if you couldn't care less about them and feel they are just another day, such as I do. =]

So, these past couple/few days, I've been trying to play around with THREE computers. Or technically even FOUR!
The family computer, an old piece of junk, has been needing a good wipe for a while. It was slower than a grotty slug and probably deserves a better life in a dump. >.< But I decided to completely wipe it and install Ubuntu onto it. For those of you who aren't very computer literate, Ubuntu is an OS, much like Windows or Mac OS. It can actually work pretty damn well on old machines and has given new life to the family hunk of scrap metal.

Now, I WAS doing this, using my machine. My computer is a beast of a thing and can do pretty much anything short of intense calculations of the universe. But just a couple days ago, right before setting up the family's computer, my own had a damn glitch. So I was unable to do things so easily. Instead, I ended up tearing apart an even older machine for the hard drive and CD ROM. Ended up not even needing the hard drive though.

So after many hours of trying to hack this other computer to pieces, I managed to get the things out I needed and installed a fresh new Ubuntu onto the family machine. It has new life and speed I don't remember it having in years.

So playing around with this Ubuntu, I decided I wanted to really get more into it. So now I have set up my laptop to dual boot Windows 7 and Ubuntu. Still wanted the Win7, so I could use some things only it can use.

Finally and most recently, at around a silly 7 in the morning my time, I decided it was probably time for bed, after so much playing around with new things. =P
So I came up to my room.
Saw that bits of my main beauty were still all over the place, so decided to put them back together and lock her all up. Turned her on once more, just to make sure and to my surprise, SHE'S WORKING AGAIN! Would have made earlier so much easier, but I'm just happy I don't have to splash out to get anything fixed. Especially as everything I need to do is on this machine. My music, my gaming, my film and photo editing programmes, my recording programmes. A lot of my hardware can only work on this machine too. It has all my files between my 3 [or 4] hard drives. Without it, I can honestly say, I feel very empty.

So hey, that's where I'm at and just felt today was one hell of an adventure for me. Would also love to thank the guys who gave me some advice, even though it wasn't needed in the end and even though it wasn't on this site, a couple of you are on here. =]

It really is bed time now. >.< Goodnight you lovely peoples. <3

MonoVCPHG 12-31-2011 08:07 AM

Good night to you too my friend. Sleep well and enjoy your New Years Eve:)


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